Let's Get Personal

Okay so most of you, if not all of you, know that I am applying for law school. My goal is to have all of my applications in and done by Tuesday (Luke's 29th birthday). I only have five applications to do but I have been putting all of them off. I can't seem to get myself started. I am lacking that motiviation that I need to just push through and get them all done.

I have been having problems with my neck the last week or so. My neck muscles just ache and I know it's because of stress. I have been trying to do things that will lessen that tension but nothing seems to be working. Luke offered to give me a neck massage and of course I let him. As he was massaging my neck he asked what could possibly help me to have less stress. I instantly started sobbing. You know when that thing happens when someone asks you a simple question and you begin to answer and then BOOM all of your emotions stream out and you didn't even know that you had those emotions???? Well that's what happened. He asked "what can we do to take a little chip off of your stress?" and I just started sobbing "Luke I don't think that my personal statement will be good enough to get me into law school."

That has been the root of my stress. I don't feel like I am going to get into law school. I don't feel like I can put myself on paper well enough to "convince" people to let me into their law schools. I am having one of those "I feel bad for myself" moments. I see most of the people that I follow on social media making their lives seem like it's a breeze to get what they have. I feel like I have to work ten times as hard to get to where I want to be. But maybe everyone is just so good at hiding their struggles and I am jsut over here thinking how I am no where near everyone else.

How do I get myself to feel that confidence and write my personal statement? Why can't I just thinking about it as a "journal entry" and put my soul into it? I need that push and that help to get it done within the next 48 hours. WISH ME LUCK